I received the very disturbing news this morning that my ex-wife had to be hospitalized last night after suffering a mild heart attack. Those of you who’ve followed this blog for awhile, and particularly those who’ve read my 42, 39, 17, 10, and 4 post, will know that I still have very deep and powerful feelings for her and can perhaps understand why this news has really sent me into an emotional tailspin.
Worst of all is that I can’t even decide what, if anything, I should do. My conscience is screaming that I should reach out, but I’m afraid that I’ll break down on the phone and only add to her misery. And there is her new husband to consider as well. I have no idea what he knows of my emotional problems, and without a deeper understanding of them he could well interpret my breaking down over this in the wrong way entirely…
Anyway, over this past weekend, while I was “fixing” that awful “drop down” list for my posts with music on my Menu Bar, I discovered a “link to nowhere” for the artist Bruno Mars. After doing a little searching around, I discovered that I’d never gotten around to publishing my reblog of Keep It Simple Saturday from over at The She Chronicles. So my intent, before getting this morning’s bad news, was to go ahead and publish it today.
In light of that news, and as hard as it is to see anything “funny” about it, I do find it strangely appropriate that the message in “The Lazy Song” fits so well with my thinking that I should relax and get myself as “composed” as possible before making that phone call. And the monkey masks the other guys in the video are clowning around in really are excellent metaphors for the kind of misunderstandings I really, REALLY want to avoid.
But then even more “strangeness” happened when I went to the YouTube page to grab the link. I “rediscovered” another video for “The Lazy Song” that fits with my own situation even better than the “official” version. Oddly enough, it’s a version that I know I’ve posted before – even though I couldn’t find the post itself, either with a search or by using the “Bruno Mars” link on my new “Music for this Blog” page. Weird, huh?
At any rate, I’ve decided to go with that version instead. I think you’ll understand why when you watch it (assuming you stay past the annoying ad at the beginning!). 😀
Wouldn’t you know it? Just as I was about to publish this post, I decided to try the “Bruno Mars” link at the bottom of the post just to see what would happen – and the damned thing actually brought up my original post: Video-ography: “Day in the Life of Bob” (via Striking Thoughts) (via Erotixx photoblog)! After looking at it again, I realized that I did that post (“a reblog of a reblog” no less) because even then I saw my own personality reflected so incredibly well in that video! 😀
BTW, it turns out that WordPress screwed up when it originally created the link for that category – but returned it in the form it should have used when I added it to my “drop down” list. I tried deleting and the re-adding it to force WP to generate a “corrected” version but it did the same thing again. So I just “corrected” the one on my new page to “force” it to work instead. 🙄
I want ice water.
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