“You can put a cat in an oven, but that don’t make it a biscuit.”
– Sidney Deane
“It is hard God damn work, making something this pretty look like a chump!”
– Billy Hoyle
Quotes from White Men Can’t Jump
The title to this post was near the top of the Wikiquote page where the above quotes are from. I have no idea what connection it has to the movie, but it seemed a perfect link between the quotes and what I want to write about.
You see, I’ve got a confession to make. A big reason for my withdrawal from society was all the “acting” required to be anything close to a “successful” member. Not that I wasn’t good at it, mind you. I was so good at it in fact, that I began to have trouble distinguishing between the characters I played to fit in and the real me I kept hidden inside.
When it finally happened, my breakdown was like the scene in Galaxy Quest where Sarris tortures Mathesar until Jason Nesmith (Tim Allen) admits that the “historical documentaries” the Thermians had modeled their lives around were all just lies. The problem was that it happened entirely in my head – with me playing all three roles!
The thing is though, the only ones I could admit the full truth to were my therapists. I tried, in my poorly executed attempts to rebuild my life, to provide “glimpses” of the truth to those I cared about in the hope that they could fill in the rest for themselves. “Glimpses” of what I really thought of myself, of them, and of their beliefs. But my half measured efforts only resulted in making matters worse, ultimately creating a distance between us best described as…
That’s when I realized that, until I’m able to be as brutally honest with other people about what I think and feel as I am with myself, relationships will always be more trouble than they’re worth.
But still… I do get so terribly lonely… Especially at times like these… When people everywhere are gathering to celebrate… And to remember…
Anyway, I saw Gotye performing “Somebody I Used To Know” on Saturday Night Live again last night. I was so impressed with them the first time that I added it to my this of things to post. This seems like the perfect time to finally do just that…
You know, somehow I can’t hear that song without also thinking of this one:
Happy Memorial Day Everyone
And Please… Be Safe
I want ice water.
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