“Nothing fixes a thing so intensely in the memory… as the wish to forget it.”
That was the ending quote for last night’s “Foundation” episode of one of my favorite TV shows – Criminal Minds. And, almost everyday of my life, I have the truth of those words driven home by one or more of those completely involuntary, flashback-induced, full-body shudders. A natural consequence, I suppose, of having a conscience and an ego with a combined mass greater than what my poor head was meant to contain.
But there are other, even harder to live with consequences of being unable (or unwilling) to let go of the past…
The non-stop drumbeat of “Why? Why? Why?!?!” is one.
And the loneliness that results from having no good answers to give is another.
I want ice water.
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