I haven’t been feeling well as of late. In fact, I haven’t felt well for quite some time. But not to worry, because as much as I hate having to do it, I’ve got an appointment to see my doctor at the VA Outpatient Clinic on next Monday. It’s my own fault for putting it off for so long, and allowing my nagging health issues – and the worry over them – to gradually become a huge source of frustration.
Less important in the larger sense, perhaps, but undoubtedly more frustrating from a day-to-day perspective, is the fact that this damned PC keeps freezing up on me at the most inconvenient times. My PC and my TV (don’t even get me started on my cable and Internet supplier!) are supposed to be the things that make my self-imposed isolation tolerable! Suffice it to say that my mood has been just a bit dour lately.
There are times when I get so frustrated, so angry, that I just want to go off and do some real damage! But before I do more than just fantasize about burning, killing, and destroying – just outright rampaging and pillaging in general, something deep inside always manages to remind me that that’s just not the side of the equation I want to be on.
And then I laugh, because I also remember this bit from one of my favorite movies.
I’m really not cut out for the dark side.
I want ice water.